The Only Way is Olly

This might be weird for me to dedicate a whole blog post as a fan message to Olly, but I am weird, so what do you expect?!

Olly Murs. He's touched a lot of people (and not in the Jimmy Savile way. But in the emotional way.) and made so many people happy. But for me? He's done so much more than that. He's given me hope. Why? Well, I suffer from anxiety, cyclothymia (a form of Bi-Polar) and depression. 2009 was like my worst year ever. I missed half of school, had a nervous breakdown, found out I had the depression, my anxiety was worse than ever, the list goes on. The X Factor is my family's way of bonding. You know, all around the TV, laughing at Simon Cowell's comments, spurting off opinions of each singer. I always liked Olly's voice along with a few others. But when it came to the final... I remember it so clearly. Olly sang "The Climb" as well as Joe. The Climb is my favorite Miley song. But when Olly sang it, I looked up at the TV instead of being glued to my laptop and as he sang the lyrics, I thought "wow. This time last year he was just a normal bloke. He wanted this so badly and he worked at it. He just kept pushing on. I'm just a normal girl. If I keep pushing on, I can get through this."

Despite having my ups and downs, I'm still fighting. I'm still pushing on. Being a person who is scared of what people think of me, I hid the fact that I was a fan of Olly. People would only bully me. Well, that's what I thought. But I always listened to his music. I've written "Hold On" on my wrist everyday because that is my favorite Olly song. It motivates me. In 2011, it was my best year ever. I broke through my shelf, gained confidence and did so much! I was offered to go to Anglesey in North Wales with this website I started writing for. It was my first time away from home and so I was scared to go, but after reminding myself of Olly in the final two and "Hold On", I did it anyway. Best decision ever. I'm now really involved with that wesbite. I've interviewed Gino D'acampo & Matt Cardle through that website. It's opened new doors for me and my CV is so full because of it! To think that if I didn't think of Olly when I had the opportunity to go to Anglesey for the weekend, I would still be trapped inside myself.

I could go on forever about other things Olly's helped me through, but it'd probably bore you. But I just want to say.... Olly, if you ever read this, which is SO unlikely, I want you to know that I am so grateful for you being you. I love you to bits and I couldn't thank you enough. I've held on, I've been pushing on... all because of you. So STAY CHEEKY AND KEEP SMILING because you can really change your fans for the best.

Made this for fans to remember 

Here's a fanpage I made for Olly.  Here's another one I'm also making a Valentine's Day Video for Olly on the first fanpage.


To the Murs Army,

I love you guys so much. We are all united as one. We're a family. You've been so nice to me on Facebook & Twitter and you make me smile and help me through the dark and dingy days. You are all freaking amazing. Please remember that. Especially Courtney. She's been amazing and she's just ACK! I love her to bits! And @OllysAngels on Twitter and @OllyMursmsia and Cat and Izii and everyone! You've given me hope. Olly taught you well ;) x


Love you all!

Jazz x

Like an Agatha Christie mystery during intermission, I hold On

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I'm only... eight days late. No biggie, the year is still young.

So, happy 2013! Did you have a good Christmas? Good. Me? Yeah, was quite good. I was bridesmaid on Christmas Eve for my mother to get married. Funniest. Wedding. Ever. They laughed through all of the vows, I had hiccups throughout it all, my stepdad cracked too many jokes and yeah, it was fun! The Italian restaurant was mmm PERFECTO. Couldn't eat dessert, though. Way too full. La Trattoria is an amazing restaurant, but my God, I was stuffed. We all were. At night (well, evening) we went to the (not-so) Midnight Mass up St Peters Church. Now, I'm not religious, but this was in memory of my uncle. He used to ring the bells at that church and it was just the church he was part of for some time in his life, so we felt that since it was our first Christmas without him, it would be appropriate if we went and sang a few carols. I lit three candles- one for my uncle, one for my Grandpa Griff and one for all the young people who have tragically passed away in Cwmparc (where I live) over the past few years. Christmas Eve was just perfect.

Christmas Day was awesome, too. I'm proud of the gifts I bought. Captured my family's personalities pretty well! I was also really pleased with my gifts. My main present was Euros and spending money for home, but I had some sweet Olly Murs merchandise, The whole of The Big Bang Theory collection, some cute stuff, funny stuff, stuff stuff. What most 17-year-olds have, really. The meal at The Lord Tonypandy Carvery was nice, too. Except there weren't any jokes in our crackers. Not. Amused. After all of that and just blobbing about (yes, I said blobbing and no I don't know why) it was time for the soaps. Most of them bore me but I quite enjoyed Eastenders, though I think the built up Derek's death far too much. I mean, I was expecting something dramatic, but a heart attack? Really? Come on, Eastenders, what about a Bradley Branning style death? Or even another Whodunnit? 

Boxing Day we flew to Paris and it was my gran's first time flying. The plane was an old banger and it felt like a freaking earthquake as we landed, but no biggie. I managed to get myself Olly's autobiography at Cardiff Airport so all communication towards me was disabled as I had earphones in and was glued to that book. I even finished it that night. Let's see... umm... got to Paris... got to our hotel... cocked up our order with our pizza delivery (blame my "now official" stepdad) and went to bed. 

The following two days just included Disneyness in the parks. Oh, and I went on a rollercoaster with a loop! I didn't plan on the loop, but we queued for so long that I couldn't care less- I just wanted to sit down. I screamed my lungs out on the ride, but it was awesome! When I told Tash, she told me that I'd soon become a rollercoaster junkie... not so sure about that, but who knows? Oh, and I went a lift in the hotel. That's two fears conquered in a space of 24 hours. Not bad, if you ask me! 

New Years Eve was just sitting on the sofa with the mother and stepdad, some junk food and just being random. It was pretty fun, but nothing major. 

So, what does 2013 have in store for me? Well, only time can tell, but the Inspire Awards  are in progress, I'm hoping to do more voluntary work and well, who knows what else? I just hope it's going to be a great year! 

Oh and Mayans? Unlucky!

Me as a bridesmaid

In the "waiting room" with my mother

I was a witness with my stepbrother, Ryan

In La Trattoria

The happy couple- The only time they weren't laughing!

My mother's work of art!

My stepbrother and his girlfriend, Danielle

My best friend, Mickey!

Kisses!

My stepbrother, me, Mickey, Danielle (haha!) and my gran

Don't ask... but it was before the parade and excitement and...

I can actually reach the bridge now! I couldn't before!

                   Have a great 2013, people! xx