Are you hanging up YOUR stockings on the wall?

HEYO!

I know I haven't written in ages, but hear me out. A lot of things has happened lately! And as per usual, when it comes to reflecting about it all in my blog, my mind goes blank! Blahhhh.

Okay, so this is my first blog post as an 18 year old! Yeah buddy! On my actual birthday, I went to an Italian restaurant in a LIMO. Hell yes. It was Jess, my parents, stepdad, stepbro & his girlfriend, gran, cousin, brother and me! It was so fun and I really loved it. The Saturday after, I went to the Elvis Festival with Jess, Ellen and Ben came from North Wales for the night and that was also a good laugh! Jess and Ben slept over and that was great, too. We stuffed our faces and just had a good time.

Jess & I at my birthday meal

LIMO!

The closest to a date I got... my mother got me the balloon...

Ellen & I at the Elvis Festival!

Sleepover!

Pepsi has finally arrived! Yes, I officially have two dalmatian puppies! They're a handful but they're great fun and I love them to bits! Pepsi has grown a hell of a lot. She was tiny when we had her, but not as tiny as Louis when we had him. She's marched on in here and has taken the role as the boss, for sure. I cannot wait for their first Christmas.

When Louis met Pepsi! 

How gorgeous?

Ready for Christmas!

I can't think what happened in October, to be honest, except the fact I started a course, but that's boring...but November was the first ever 5SOSFam Cardiff meet up and it was the shiiiit! Made some amazing friends and we even got noticed by 5SOS THEMSELVES!

I speak to a lot of girls on Twitter and fangirl over 5SOS, One Direction, Olly Murs, etc. and I arranged with a girl, Sarah (who I now love to bits!),to meet at Cardiff Central Station to go to the meet up with. Now, I know it is dangerous to meet up with people from the internet, but if you follow certain rules, it should be okay (I’ll give tips at the end of this article!). We met with other fans at Cardiff Castle and there turned out to be between 15-20 fans there in total, all there for 5 Seconds of Summer. We all made friends and got along really easily. We went around Cardiff, including Starbucks and the Apple Store and all had a great time, discussing the band, singing songs and bonding. We all love the band a lot and by the end of the day, we got on so well.

To top it off, Calum, one of the members of 5SOS noticed our meet up photos and tweeted them as well as the video I created of the day. Talk about the icing on the cake!

The meet up was really fun, but not all online meet ups go as well as ours did. If you ever plan to meet anyone from the internet, take extra care, get consent from your parents/guardian - or even take them with you, and never go alone. Here are some tips to ensure that it is as safe as possible.

• Make sure the meet up is in public and daylight - this way, if anyone dodgy does show up, you have a lot of witnesses and people can see what’s going on.

• Have an adult with you or nearby - even though I’m 18, I had my scary-looking dad walk with me to the meet up so he could see who people were and make sure they seemed okay. A parent, guardian or family friend would be ideal.

• Have a mobile phone with you at all times - you never know what could go wrong. From people turning up you didn’t want there, to arguments or even someone becoming ill. A mobile always comes in handy.

• Bring a banner/wear specific clothing- If you walk up to someone and assume it’s someone at the meet up, they could lie and say they are, when they’re actually not. We wore 5 Seconds of Summer shirts/told each other what we were wearing that day so we could identify one another.

• Don’t feel forced into attending any meet up if you’re not comfortable - if you don’t feel okay with meeting up, you can always say no. You’re not forced into doing it!

Video I made!

Aren't we cute?

Being patriotic!

26th November was a special date. Why? I FINALLY MET OLLY MURS.  I was on Twitter one day to see OllyHQ tweet from his account saying about the HMV 'Sign and Selfie' and how he was only going to do one in London. I was gutted because I’ve never had the chance to meet him. I carried on my week like normal, but was slightly gutted that I was missing yet another chance to meet 1/6th of my idols. A few days later -forgetting where the signing even was - my dad offered to take me to London for the day as he had a 'little Christmas surprise' for me. He said it didn’t cost much, but I’d really like it. Thinking it was a day of Christmas shopping, I agreed to it.

On the morning of the day, a friend of mine Tweeted, saying about the signing…that’s when it triggered in my mind - could I be going to meet Olly? Nah, probably not, but just in case, I took a letter I had written once that I always wanted to send but didn’t and a present I always said I’d give him if I ever met him. Stupid, I know, but still. 

When we arrived in London, I just thought I was being stupid and I clearly wasn’t meeting Olly. I followed my dad to the London Underground from Victoria Bus Station and we got on the Victoria Line. When we got off at Oxford Circus, I still just thought it was probably Christmas shopping. Until we arrived at the back of HMV, to see a queue of 200 people. I freaked out - this was it. I was in the queue to meet Olly Murs. I thanked my dad a thousand times and even though I had to wait five hours in the cold, I didn’t care. I still thought there was a possibility I wasn’t going to meet him, until security informed us after 600 people arrived, they’d close the queue. I asked where about in the queue were we and he said the 200 mark. I froze. I was in the queue of people definitely meeting Olly. My heart was racing and I didn’t know what to think or say. It didn’t hit me for ages. 

So after waiting for like 6 hours, Olly arrived and we were all in what made me think of sheep pens made out of the HMV aisles. I was, like, in the fourth one and it was about 30 minutes until my turn but it felt like forever. In the background, the new DVD that comes with the special edition album played and everyone was so excited. Olly finally came out and the press took their photos and we all went wild. I was so overwhelmed; I didn’t know what to do!

Finally, it was my turn. It was super quick and (because my memory is like a frigging film developing camera when I'm excited) I still can't remember everything, but he was like 'alright darlin?' and I was like 'hiya! Umm. I brought you a present, it's not much but...' 'Oh thanks! What is it?' 'It's a Welsh lovespoon, the letter explains it,' 'thanks, babe,' he put it to one side, signed my CD and then took a selfie on my phone and gave me a hug and let me kiss his cheek, said 'bye darlin!' and that was it. But he had 600 people in the 2 hour slot so I didn't expect much but I loved it even if it was over in a flash.

I broke down in tears after meeting him and I still can’t quite get my head around meeting him but I’m so glad I did and I am so happy my dad took me to London just to meet him for not even two minutes. It meant the world to me and it still does and it will be something I will never ever forget. 

Forever to be treasured. He smelt amazing! 

That Saturday was another amazing day because I finally met Tash. Tash is my dear friend who I have been talking to since I was like 13. We met on Stardoll and have been close ever since. She's in uni now and that's in Cardiff AKA an hour away from me so 30th November we finally got to meet! It was a bit emotional, but so much fun! We walked around Cardiff before meeting up with my friends Adam and Beth to go to Winter Wonderland which was absolutely great fun! Tash is amazing in person and online and I hope we will continue to be dear friends for many years to come! 

We were like 15 in the above photos and then the bottom
 one is under the foam spray  in Winter Wonderland!

Glad we met! 

Finally, my last piece of news is the 5SOS CHRISTMAS meet up. Basically what I said earlier but 2.0 and much more fun. I organised this one so I made sure it had a lot of activities in it. After weeks of online promotion for the event, the day finally arrived on Saturday 14th December where fangirls for the Australian band, 5 Seconds of Summer, travelled from all over South Wales to meet up in order to celebrate and share their love for the Aussie boys who stole their hearts. 

The event began about midday in front of the Coca Cola truck outside Cardiff National Library, where everyone met up, 5SOS cakes (made by yours truly) were shared, Christmas cards were given out and people were vlogging. It was very fun to meet the newbies and reunite with the originals. 

Once everyone arrived, we all queued up for a photo by the Coca Cola truck and the staff was a bit blown away by how many of us there were. It was all very exciting and we were very hyped up with the spirit of Christmas and our love for 5SOS. 

With the photo out the way, we watched the Coca Cola choir singing and got involved ourselves- getting them to sing happy birthday to 5SOS as it was their second birthday last week and I even got a bunch of people to dance to Mistletoe and Wine with Sir Cliff’s famous swaying dance. It was all great fun and I think we’ve made friends in the choir! 

After taking some photos with some iconic places in Cardiff (The Millennium Stadium, for example) and a quick chat with Santa, we had a McDonalds before heading off to Winter Wonderland for some fun. Rhian and I went on the Around The World ride, which I normally love, but it was so windy, our cart was like up the top of the ride and rocking from the wind- I began to believe I wasn’t going to make it to Christmas at that rate! 

Once we were back safely on the ground, we dominated the Penguin Bumper Cars and tried to hit each other’s cars, which was really funny and just good fun. We hung around together for a bit longer until it began to get dark and it was then we decided to say our goodbyes and send our Christmas wishes to one another before departing from another fantastic meet up. 

It was so much fun and to be the one to have organised it was amazing. I loved it so much and I cannot wait until the next one! I love all my friends I’ve made from these meet ups and I can’t wait to see them next year! 

The thing that topped off that weekend was the fact that none other than 5SOS THEMSELVES FOLLOWED ME! I cried, I screamed, I freaked out. It was just unexpected but a completely pleasant surprise.

How Christmassy is this?

Collages are fun

Laura got the plods involved! 

This is my last blog of the year so have an amazing Christmas, you guys! 

My New Years' resolutions are just to keep working hard on my course and just to stay positive!  Oh,a nd to enjoy my 3 concerts (McBusted, Little Mix and 1D where I'll be meeting NIA! My best friend from North Wales)

Merry Christmas and see you on the other side of this year! 

oxoxoxox

Guess who's back, back again...

Hola mi amigos!

I'm baaaaack. I haven't really been anywhere, just the fact that everytime I go to blog, something else happens! So here's a post with all the shizz happening with me since... the last time... if you're interested...

Ha, now it's time to list it, I can't remember!

Okay, so I went to Ponty's Big Weekend in July and oh em gee, it was fooking amaaaazing! We're talking JLS, we're talking Little Mix, we're talking Union J and I was like aaaaaaahweiuhjrwiuhgthguithgt with the Wicid crew. I lost my Wicid hoodie, though. Sad times. But it was amazing! Little Mix and John Adams were my favourite acts and I got to go in the press pit to take photos of John which was aaamaaaaazing! You can read about my experience at PBW2013 heeeeere  mine is the first review.

With John Adams @ Ponty's Big Weekend!

Hmm, what else? Oh yeah! I interviewed Gino again! He's such a nice guy! We were at Ponty's Big Welsh Bite and it was good fun! Did a bit of face painting, too. Good fun. I have no idea where the interview is right now, but I'm sure Wicid will post it soon.

Now for the best bit- GUESS WHO TWEETED ME! UEIPFHTPUJUGITHGT NIALL HORAN *Screams* My emotions were skyhigh and I literally had no sleep that night. I've posted a pic of the tweet & reply on here so look at it and FANGIRL WITH ME.

Gino! I look a wreck because it was boiling and I was working...

asdfghjklewrtgyhujtrftyrh <<the noise I made when he tweeted

I went to see This is Us last weekend and it was amazing. Outstanding. Superb and all them other words. I loved ever second. CAN WE GIVE AN AWARD TO MORGAN SPURLOCK, BEN WINSTON AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO MADE IT AMAZING?! I loved it all but my most memorable bits are as followed (Spoiler alert, scroll past if you have yet to see it!)

• Lirry fishing and relaxing and just talking about life. So cute. The way that Liam wanted to be a fireman to save lives. Especially after this week he saved Andy from a fire. What a hero. 
• Ziam's emotional goodbye. The look on Liam's face, bless him. You can really feel their friendship. *Sniff* it's beautiful
• Reggae Last First Kiss. Like, CAN WE PLEASE GET THIS ON iTUNES? Oh my God, it was soooo good! I could be jammin all night mon. (My awful attempt at a Jamaican accent whilst typing) 
• Louis saying how he hated his audition and didn't want it in the film... then Spurlock trolled him and put it in the moment he said that. Haha, good one, Spurly! 
• Niall at his brother's wedding. 1. He looked amazing. 2. It was so cute to see he's still a normal guy with an abnormal job. 3. He looked amazing. 
• ALL OF IT. Cannot waaaait until it's on DVD!

So, yeah! That's This is Us for ya! I've reviewed it for Wicid but it's not live yet. Keep yo' eyes peeled on Wicid.tv mofos and read it, like it, tweet it. Hashtag shameless plug.

This is us! I took a cake in honour of Liam's birthday ><

In other news- I'm involved with more projects! Numero uno: 1DWeekly. I am the content creator for a weekly 1D show, rightly named 1DWeekly. It's presented and created by the wonderful YouTuber known as Joshua Fox. The first episode with content from yours truly is up and you can watch it on m'blog. Yay. Also, #1DWeekly, follow Josh on Twitter because he is awesome and meets like a bajillion celebrities for teh lolz and also subscribe him and watch the show, si? Comment your thoughts, too! 

Numero dos: I now run Camryn's first official Welsh Fanpage on Twitter! Give us a follow? G'waan, you know you wanna. 

Doggy updates: Louis is doing well. The little shit loves to bite but other than that, he's doing well! We're having a new dalmatian puppy soon! Pepsi! We're having her 15th September. DALMATIAN PLANTATION!

Pepsi! Coming soon.

Louis looking as cute as ever

That's about it now. And this is my last post as a 17 year old. Because next time I post, I shall be 18, mofos. Legal to go clubbin an' shit. Not as if I'm going to go.

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIII! xxxxx

3 Years of One Direction: My 1D Story

Everyone is sharing their story, so this is mine:

I will always feel guilty for never being there from the start, but it’s not like I ever hated the boys. 2009 I was diagnosed with depression. It was a tough battle and lasted til early 2011, when I found my calling in life- writing and journalism.

During 2011 I was so focused on that and the events I was attending, I had no time for being a fan of anything. I made new friends who were older than me and at first I thought I could be myself around them… Well, I was wrong. I heard WMYB properly at a restaurant with them and all they did was slag the boys off, insult their fans and just put them down. I didn’t want to be seen as that person to them, so I ignored the fact that the song was catchy and just didn’t bother.

I heard WMYB again in Feb 2012 on a residential weekend on a friend’s iPod and I liked it so much that I borrowed his iPod and played it over and over. I was still trying to hide the fact that I found the song catchy until I went to visit family in Luton for the week.

I was on a computer looking at Sugarscape when I saw an article about Harry and how nice he was. I read a few articles about the boys before realising what I was doing and then stopped. When I got home from Luton, my “friends" and I got into massive argument and they started bullying me. I was in pieces.

My depression kicked back in and my anti-depressants were boosted. At this point, I began admitting I was a fan of Olly because the same thing was happening about me liking him. I got so caught up in being able to admit the fact I liked Olly, I forgot that I was allowed to like One Direction, too. Until New Years 2013, I saw a 1D video in the “suggested for you" on YouTube. It was a link to all the video diaries. I watched them and fell in love. Those boys were hilarious, sweet and just amazing.

I watched their X Factor performances from start to finish and ended up being awake all night listening to AUN and watching 2011-2012 videos. I’m not in education so by the end of that week, I had watched/read/listened to so much 1D stuff, I knew literally everything. I has downloaded both UAN and TMH and they were constantly playing.

In february, The NHS effed my medication up and gave me the wrong one, so I was suicidal. It came to the point that my mother had to take the day off work because I was so bad and we were crying on my bed together. She went downstairs to make an emergency appointment with my clinic and I put music on to help me fall asleep- Little Things came on and I cried again, but instead of it being because of suicidal thoughts, it was because I felt worth something after all. I smiled for the first time in days and with the help of the boys and my medication put back to normal, I was better again.

When I found out Camryn- who I had heard of years ago and I really liked- was going to be the support act of the boys UK tour, I was so gutted I didn’t have tickets! Camryn and I had spoken a few times before so I messaged her, wishing her luck for the tour and telling her about where I live and the website I write for and how she was on my bucket list as someone I wanted to interview. She replied saying thanks and how she’d love for me to interview her! I was so shocked and since she was going to be in my city the following week, I asked if I could interview her then and she happily agreed to it! I got the editor of the website to email her publicist and 2 days before, I found out I was going to interview her AND the fact that I had 2 FREE TICKETS TO SEE CAMRYN ON ONE DIRECTIONS SHOW ON MARCH 1st.

My emotions were everywhere and I was so happy! Camryn was Lovely and her manager put me on the guest list and my seats were amazing. They were at the back but less than 3 feet away from the floating stage stopping. It was amazing being so close to them and my love for them could only grow stronger.

Interacting with the fandom was scary at first… What if they rejected me? But I had learnt so much about the boys, I was fine and I didn’t tell them my story unless we were close. Some people were bitchy, but you get that everywhere.

One day, I had bad news and I was really down about it, but an hour later, Zayn tweeted a pic of Niall sleeping with sunglasses on, which I replied “how uncomfy is that?!" not 30 seconds after I tweeted it, ZAYN FOLLOWED ME! I was an emotional wreck, yet so thankful and he cheered me up so much.

I have so many memories of this fandom and it hasn’t even been a year for me yet! But the boys and Olly have literally saved my life and I wish I could thank them personally.

Happy 3 years, One Direction! I love you and the fandom ❤❤❤❤

Summer Lovin...

Hey! How are you? Good, good. Me? Alright, like. Been up to much? Okay, cool.

Anyway, I've not written on here for a while, have I? Apologies. Ha. Not as if you cared. This is purely for my own entertainment and it doesn't entertain me all that much, but hey, it kills a couple of minutes, doesn't it?

I don't know where to start... but I think I'll start with the sad news. My beautiful dog, Mavis, passed away. It was so sad. She was diagnosed with a heart condition about... 3 months ago and then suddenly, she just passed. It wasn't painful for her, because it was really quick, but it was painful for us to lose her so quickly. 

Rest in Peace, Mavis

But, we missed having a dog so much, we decided to get a puppy. A dalmatian again, but this time, a boy! His name is Louis and he's currently 10 weeks old. We picked him up last Saturday and he's already grown so much! We named him Louis because, well, the full story is that my mother wanted a Disney name for him, but after naming every male Disney character that existed, I got bored and started saying One Direction names. "Harry, Niall, Zayn, Liam, Louis-" "Actually, I quite like Louis." "Really?" "Yeah, like Louis Vitton!" "No... Louis Tomlinson." "No, Vitton." "Does it actually matter?!" "Right, Louis it is then." so, that's what we named him. He's a bit of a bugger because he likes to bite me, instead of his toy, but he is only playing. And he's an angel when he's asleep.

Isn't he a bundle of cuteness? 

I also went to the Cut Film Awards on 6th June with Wicid, where I met T4 & The You Generation's Will Best! He's also a friend of One Direction, dontcha know? I was so nervous but I really wanted a photo with him, so Rhys, the Editor of Wicid, went up to him and asked if I could have a picture! He was really down to  earth and we spoke for a good ten minutes about One Direction (mainly Niall) and The You Generation! I was freaking out! And he followed me on Twitter! He was so lovely! And after the awards, I got to interview him! Then he kissed me on the cheek and I was blushing. I don't have a crush on him, but it's rare that anyone kisses me on the cheek hahaha. Check out my review of the awards here.

With some of Wicid on the red carpet! Aww, cute!

There was some dress up stuff- we gladly  took advantage 

Mark, Ashley, Katie and me! 

Myself and Mr Will Best! 

Have you heard Miley Cyrus' new single, We Can't Stop? I love it! The music video, though, is a bit... unusual. It's not horrible, but it's certainly different.

I love Miley and you should know that, but it's definitely not what I expected. I don't think the ghetto thing is very big in Wales, so maybe that's why it seems rather weird? I don't know.

Anyway. That's all, really. Except I cannot wait for One Direction's film, book & fragrance and I miss Olly to bits, I wish he'd come back to Wales soon! 

S'laters... x

Procrastination at its Finest

Hiiiiii!

Sorry, I've been procrastinating with this blog post. Like two months! Jesus. Where to start?

Well, I saw Olly live on 26th March and it was EPIC! I was in his tour book & GUESS WHAT! He shouted to me from the stage! Well, basically, he did the rip & trip and said "What's my mum gonna say?" To which I yelled "I've already tweeted her Olly!" I didn't expect him to hear me. He did. The whole arena did. And he just looked at me and went "ohh nooo! Hahaa!" And I totally fangirled. So yeah.

The concert was amazing, though. Seriously, Olly is a fucking amazing performer. I love the dude! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand guess what! HE TWEETED ME!!!!! Look:

Care to fangirl with me?

And if that wasn't enough to make me scream like crazy- a few days later, look who only goes and fucking follows me!

I swear that week was "make Jazz freak out til she explodes" week. But, hey! I ain't complaining!

Hmm, what else? Oh, yeah! I went on a CLIC residential last weekend. It was cool. We had a good laugh. I did the Harlem Shake. That's the third one I've done now. Here's a video of the latest one where I'm a better Bieber than Bieber and then I do 1D moves. OH! AND I HAVE FINALLY LEARNT TO TIE MY LACES! Only took me 17 years. And 5 members of staff...

Umm, to be honest, I don't now what else there is to say. So here are some photos for you beautiful people.

This pic I took at the concert- dunno how but I did.

Murs Army I met before the concert!

Dan & I on the residential being badasses.

Bowling on the residential with Eddie & Nick!

I got to be Simon Cowell as a judge for CLIC's Got Talent!

Ben, Ashley & Me! My hair is wet because rain -_-

We had this boring  interesting hour long lecture about benefits...

I'm just totally going for it during the YMCA!

CLIC FAMILY!

We're All in This Together

Excuse the title, I was in a High School Musical mood and it fits the topic. You love it, really.

You know what bugs me?

Okay, yes, that bugs me, but that's not what I'm talking about.

What bugs me is that people bully people for liking things that they like. I'm talking about fandoms right now. Let's take the One Direction fandom, known as Directioners as an example. Yes, I'm in fact a Directioner. I'm proud, too. In general, they're all nice people, but I can't help but notice the mean bitches who think they own the fandom.

What do I mean? Well, the girls who are like "you can't be a Directioner if you don't know this" or "you can't be a *insert boyband member's name here* girl because there's too many of us". Uh, excuse me? Are you being serious? There isn't "too many of us" because there is no limit to the fandom! It's not some secret club you have to apply to be a member of. If you're a big fan of the boys and you're dedicated or whatever, then yes, you're a Directioner. There's no ifs or buts. If that's what you are, then good for you! But it can be really uncomfortable when some people think they can boss you about. Sorry, who died and made you queen?

Also, people are saying "you can't be a directioner if you didn't love them from the start." Uh, some people may have only recently heard of One Direction or maybe they were too busy being peer pressured into what they were and weren't allowed to like in the past and now they are part of the fandom. It doesn't matter when you joined the fandom, it matters about you staying and supporting the boys.

As the curly one known as Harry Styles once said "Real directioners are not the ones who have millions of our photos. They're the ones who love us unconditionally."

Guys, a fandom is meant to be like a family. A fan BASE to support your idol. Don't bully and bitch and hate. Just get along. We all have one thing in common: Our love for our idol. This isn't just about Directioners, because I know it happens in other fandoms, but I used this one as an example.

Please stop hating each other. Oh, and for Larry? If you think they'd be cute together, fair enough, but don't push and push and force your beliefs to try and make it real. Just read this photo:

Just imagine and remember

That's all I have to say on this subject for now. But can we all just get along? Stop bullying and trying to run things YOUR way? We're (excuse the cheesiness) all in this together. So let's get along, yeah?

I wanna stay up all night... well, I don't have a choice, I can't sleep...

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,

What's occurin'? It's like 1:30AM and I'm wide awake. Ever since the concert, I've had the flu and it's not been nice, but oh well, that's life, right?

I've just watched One Direction's Ghana video diaries and I don't know quite what to do with myself besides donate all my money to Comic Relief, but I have none so that won't work. These boys really are incredible. I do admire them for following their dreams and being inspirational through their music,etc. but what really wins me over is that they are really down to earth and you watch them in Ghana and you just... you understand everything. You can't help but praise the lads. I wish I could do whatever possible to help out and what hurts is I can't even do my fundraiser now because I have the flu, but I'm going to donate whenever freaking possible. I wore my Red Nose Day shirt to their concert and I've bought the charity single which you can also buy here as well as see what the boys are up to. Seriously, this is such a good cause to help out so please do whatever you can to donate and help out. I've always wanted to go to Africa to do something like this and now the boys have made me want to do it even more.

Moving away from that subject now... I can't stop fangirling lately and it's really worrying! I don't know why, but I really can't and it's worrying. Meh, oh well.  I'M SEEING OLLY IN JUST UNDER TWO WEEKS, BABY! ACK! Sorry, random outburst but WHOO!

Oh yeah! My interview with Camryn is now on her website! It's also here. Excuse my embarassement, I was shy and just... ack.

She was so sweet and such a lovely person! I'm so glad I had the opportunity to interview her and I wish I could relive it all over again. And I got to see her and One Direction live which asdfhjkl...

I'm fed up of this flu. I can't sleep because of it and the pain in my face from it is giving me tooth ache and it's really horrible. I've had enough! 

And now... I've ran out of things to say... so... BYE! 

Fan girl mode: ON

OH MY HOLY JESUS.

So, Friday was St David's Day. Not only that, but it was the best St David's Day ever! Why? I met/interviewed Camryn and saw her and One Direction LIVE. *Screams*.

It was amazing. Seriously. I still haven't gotten over it. I'll start from just before the interview. We went to Camryn's hotel in Cardiff and my heart was racing. Like, I felt dizzy because of it all. I don't normally get starstruck (I mean, I interviewed Gino D'acampo and Matt Cardle and I was fine) but today, I don't know what it was, I was just freaking out inside. I kept my cool, obviously, or as cool as I can get and I just tried to breathe. Then her manager, Jeff, came and got myself and Craig from Wicid and we headed upstairs to this sort of bar area and he went and got Camryn from her room. I was just a bit lost, standing there while Craig set the camera and I was just like "Okay, now what? What am I supposed to do?!" and I turned around and in walked Camryn and her manager. She introduced herself and shook my hand and she was literally the sweetest girl ever. I know she's only 13 but she seems much older than that! Older than me! We did the interview and it went really well (except my eye just decided to water halfway through it for no apparent reason) and before I knew it, it was over! But I gave Camryn a Welsh cowboy hat and I think she liked it! I hope so, anyway! Then we wanted a photo together so Craig took our photo on both of our phones and Camryn tweeted/Instagrammed/Facebooked it and suddenly my followers and mentions went crazy! But yeah, Camryn is like the sweetest girl on the planet and really pretty, too!

Camryn and I! 

Her manager hooked me up with two tickets to see her and One Direction that night and oh my God, best concert EVER. Camryn reminded me of Hannah Montana on stage and she totally rocked it. I was dancing throughout all of her performance and singing along to all the songs! Freaking amazing.

When One Direction performed, well, I could go on forever about how amazing they were but here were my highlights:

• Niall's Welsh accent: He nailed it and I couldn't stop laughing. He taught Liam and Liam did really well, too!
• Louis' Milkshake Story: If you Youtube it, you'll hear about it and it was really funny!
• Louis DJing: So funny! I want him to DJ my 18th haha!
• Harry Styles smiling because of me: When they floated over the crowd, they ended up 3 feet away from me and the lights were on me, too and he was trying to be serious but I pulled a funny face at him and he smiled and stared at me and everyone was going "OH MY GOD HE SMILED AT YOU! YOU MADE HIM SMILE!" so that was crazy!
• Liam seeing me wave my hat and copying my wave: nuff said!
• Liam Beatboxing during Harry's WMYB solo: it sounded SO GOOD.

Obviously there was so much else that happened but I'd take forever telling you about it! 

So thanks to Camryn, I can check something off my bucket list! Massive shoutout to Camryn for that and I can't wait until the day she has her own tour in the UK and I hope she stops in the UK to rock out with us again! 

My interview and review will be available on Wicid and CLIC this week so keep an eye out!

Lateeeers! <3 x

My NEW Bucket List

I did a bucket list a while ago, but I want to do a new one because well... new things have interested me and other things I've probably lost interested in. So here's my new one!

1. Meet & interview Olly Murs - HALF DONE! (Met Olly 26/11/2013)
2. Meet & interview One Direction
3. Meet & interview Camryn - DONE (01/03/2013)
4. Go to all the Disney parks in the world
5. Stay in a five star hotel
6. Have work experience at Sugarscape
7. Go to LA
8. Swim with dolphins
9. Go to Italy
10. Put songs I've written to music
11. Work for a charity
12. Spend the day with one of my idols
13. Go to Africa to help out
14. Do the Harlem Shake! - DONE (more times than expected)
15. Learn sign language
16. Have a basic understanding of Japanese
17. Be happy with who I am
18. Watch a musical (pref. Wicked, We Will Rock You or Lion King)
19. Own a parrot
20. Be an extra in something. Like a film, show, music video, I dunno.
21. Work with ITV Wales again for another short film.
22. Go to a big awards ceremony (BRITs maybe?)
23. Visit Hollywood
24. Go to Tennessee
25. Shop in New York
26. Go to a festival
27. Make and finish a scrapbook
28. Have a massive water fight
29. Find a lifelong friend
30. Go to the Ben & Jerry's graveyard
31. Go snorkeling
32. Visit Walt Disney, Roy Disney, Elvis Presley, Marylin Monroe, Mickey Mouse & Kermit The Frog's Walk of Fame Stars
33. Go to Universal Studios, Citywalk and Disneyland in California
34. Go to Florida again
35. Take a photo by the Hollywood Sign
36. Finish this bucket list/

100 questions!

Waiting for my mother to hurry up home from work because I'm bored on m'own now...

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Thriller (Michael Jackson), La La Land (Demi Lovato), Moments (One Direction), I Need You Now (Olly Murs), Hound Dog (Elvis Presley), Killing In The Name (RATM)

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Olly Murs and One Direction (See last blog post) AND CAMRYN


3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
Can't find a book so it's a magazine and it says "The original decanters were sourced from antiques markets, making each piece unique." It's not my magazine, I swear.

4) What do you think about most?
Olly Murs, One Direction, Disney and life.

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
"Not yet. Fingers crossed!"

6) Do you sleep with or without the light on?
Without. I used to have the landing light on until I was 7, but now sleeping with the light on would bug me.

7) What’s your strangest talent?
I don't have a strange talent! Typing without looking?

8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls are humans, Boys are too. Apparently.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
No *Sad face* 

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Umm, I don't know. Probably a few months ago.

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
Death, but that isn't strange. 

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Hahaha, no. 

13) What’s your religion?
Agnostic.

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Wanting to be back inside, haha! I don't know, to be honest. Depends where I am.

15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
I like taking funny photos, but I like taking photos, too.

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
One Direction. Guilty!

17) What was the last lie you told?
That I wasn't spending all day sleeping... *Ahem*

18) Do you believe in karma?
To be honest, I don't know. 

19) What does your screen name mean?
Screen name for my blog? It's just because I love Olly Murs' Troublemaker and I can be cheeky so I was once called "Miss Cheeky" and I was also called "Miss Troublemaker" and since I'm an olly fan, I put the two together... yeah...

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I'm too open and umm... Creativity? I dunno...

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
I go really red when people ask me this! I think Zac Efron, but at the same time, I kind of like Olly and One Direction, but if they asked me out, I'd actually feel like saying no because I'd want to be best mates with them. Olly's too old for me anyway. He's like... 11 years older? Haha! Harry Styles is just over a year older than me, so that's not too bad, eh? 

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Pfft, NO!

23) How do you vent your anger?
Either by listening to music or lying on my bed and screaming into my pillow. 

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Dalmatians! And Disney stuff...

25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Video chatting. I don't know why but I'm awful when it comes to phonecalls and hate them.

26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
That's debatable.

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
Babies crying and the sweet voices of Olly & One Direction (How many times will I mention them in this blog alone?)

28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
"What if we never moved back from Caerphilly... what would life be like now?"

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I doubt their existence but you never know...

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
TV remote, my phone

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Nothing. 

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
I'm not too sure! Probably the French Hospital I had to go to when my dad fell ill in France.

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
Eh?

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Olly Murs & One Di- that doesn't need finishing, does it?

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
I'm still trying to find it out...

36) Define: love.
There's different types of love- caring love, romantic love, lust love, there's a few. But I know I haven't found true love towards a person yet, though I love my friends and family with all my heart and I love my idols for being who they are. Love is an umbrella of different loves. 

37) Do you believe in luck?
I hope it exists.

38) What’s the weather like right now?
Welsh. 

39) What time is it?
12:26pm

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Nope >< 

41) What was the last book you read?
Happy Days by Olly Murs

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
It's alright.

43) Do you have any nicknames?
Jazz. It's like used as my name, though, instead of Jazmin. Rare that I get called Jazmin. 

44) What was the last movie you saw?
That's actually a good question. I don't know the answer to it! 

45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
My knee injury. Don't laugh! I did a chicken impression and it sort of wrenched and moved out of place and I pulled crucial ligaments and ended up in hospital for four hours. It still plays up! 

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
No :( 

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Do you really need to ask? 
48) What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?
Ben & Jerry's Phish Food. 

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Too many. 

50) Do you believe in magic?
Disney magic is the best kind of magic. 

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Yep.

52) What is your astrological sign?
Libra.

53) Do you save money or spend it?
I try to save and do well for a while and then suddenly, I spend it when I haven't finished saving.

54) What’s the last thing you purchased?
iTunes voucher.

55) Love or lust?
Never experienced love so I don't know. 

56) In a relationship?
Nope.

57) Are you a virgin?
Yep.

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
*Tries to* No, but close. 

59) Where were you yesterday?
In my house. 

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
MY PJ'S! Wearing my reindeer ones. 

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
No, but I should- my feet are cold!

62) What’s your favorite animal?
Dog.

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
What?

64) Where is your best friend?
In my head. He's imaginary. His name is Billiard. Nah, I don't know, to be honest. I have a few. Probably in school/college or working. 

65) Spit or swallow?
O.o

66) What is your heritage?
I'm Welsh, but my Granddad was born in England, though he moved to Wales when he was four so his accent was a rather strong Welsh one.

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Trying to sleep.

68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?
Ahaha, I was going to say, but then I realised that was the last name of someone I disliked so I'm going to be a good girl and not give it out.

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
What?

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I don't know, to be honest.

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
There's no canal near me. So there. But I'd save the dog and say "Look, do you really want me to be a cold-hearted employee?"

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
Of course I would, I'd try and meet my heroes, yes.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
Trust. Because how can you love someone you can't trust? 

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Hold On by Olly Murs because it really helps me.

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
I'm not telling you.

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust, similarities and differences, a good laugh and obviously have feelings for one another. But I have never had a relationship, so I don't know if I've missed anything out.

77) How can I win your heart?
Be kind, caring, generous, funny and like me for who I am.

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Yes. 

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Joining Wicid/CLIC.

80) What size shoes do you wear?
7

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Oh my God, the guy's grave next to my granddad's says "Mission Completed" I want something quirky like that! 

82) What is your favorite word?
Disney :P 

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: sex.
I cringe. No idea why! 

 84) What is a saying you say a lot?
Oh my God

85) What’s the last song you listened to?
I'm currently listening to Heart Attack by Demi Lovato

86) Basic question: what’s your favorite color/colors?
Purple, Pink, Black & Silver.

87) What is your current desktop picture?
It's Olly Murs & One Direction

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
I can't give that kind of information out! 

89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
I don't know. Probably "Who do you think is good looking?" because I don't know (except celebrities) 

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Tell them to shut the eff up because I'm sleeping. 

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
To be able to meet anyone I wanted to.

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Either winning CLICer of the Year or half an hour of one of the residentials I've been on.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
There's a few. Like being stuck in a French Hospital... or this massive argument I had. Or having my dog stolen. No I think the last one. 
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
I don't know! *goes red* 

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
CALIFORNIA! Or Florida. 

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not that I'm aware of.

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Yes. It was horrible. But it was my fault because my step brother and I had eaten too many cookies. Whoops! 

98) Ever been on a plane?
Indeed I have. 

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Stop the wars and hate, Let me meet Olly Murs & One Direction, someone go find a cure for cancer, stop killing people, sort this horse-meat scandal out and I LOVE DISNEY. 

100) Your motto?
Probably "Keep Smiling, Keep Dreaming, Keep Believing". 

My Six Superheroes

Soppy alert. I repeat, soppy alert. Sorry not sorry. 


When people say that a famous person means a lot to them, you shouldn't slag that person off because there are some celebrities out there that really can have an impact on your life.

I'm just going to say it- yes, I suffer with cyclothymia (a form of Bi Polar) topped off with anxiety and borderline depression. It's a bitch. But, there are six people who get me through everyday- Olly Murs and One Direction.

Before you groan and call me an "obsessive fan girl" I'm just going to kindly tell you to shut the hell up. Why? Because you don't understand the story and you've never walked in my shoes, so who are you to judge what impact they've had on me? Exactly.

I'm not going to go through how I first became a fan or anything, because I'm sure I've mentioned it before. And I'm not ashamed to admit that I wasn't an open fan at first, either. You see, I had a group of friends I looked up to and I felt as though fan girling and such was completely out of the question if I didn't want them to see me as a freak. Those friendships (or the majority of, at least) ended and I'm actually glad they did. The true friends have stuck by my side and I feel that I can be myself again. I've been a fan of Olly since The X Factor 2009, so practically all of his career. But One Direction... when they were on the show, I was sort of stuck in a fog of confusion and pain... I was questioning myself about a lot of things in life and when you think as much as I do, you don't tend to notice things like "what's on the telly",etc. So, yes, I'm a fairly new fan of One Direction, but that makes me no different to any other. Why? Because I still look up to the boys and they really have made an impact on my life in the past month or two.

I'm in a dark place right now and trapped in a prison cell known as my own body, but when the internet is your only company for about 70% of the day, you end up learning a lot about your heroes and they make you realise that life can be pretty damn amazing and you don't have to suffer. Getting out of my situation is hard, but when you have six idols to look up to, it can help a lot. Olly's journey, his passion, his music, all of it is something I look up to a lot. When he sent me an autograph recently, I've kept it as a little something to look at and remember that I can do this. And watching One Direction live their dreams and being crazy, teenage boys has made me realise that life isn't as bad as the darkness in my mind is building it up to be.

I am so thankful for those six British lads because I don't know where the hell I would be right now without them because the past few months have been hell and torture and I have a slight feeling that without the glimpse of positiveness, I wouldn't be here. Something dark to say, I know, but you have to live in the situation to understand.

I know that the odds of me meeting my idols are practically impossible and that sucks, but I'm just thankful they exist and are living their dreams and are inspiring millions of people and I'm lucky to be one of those people they are inspiring and if I could do anything to thank them, I would, but I just don't know how... so I'll just be a faithful and loyal fan and stick with them even through the hard times because I really do love them.

Oliver Stanley Murs ♥

One Direction ♥