My NEW Bucket List

I did a bucket list a while ago, but I want to do a new one because well... new things have interested me and other things I've probably lost interested in. So here's my new one!

1. Meet & interview Olly Murs - HALF DONE! (Met Olly 26/11/2013)
2. Meet & interview One Direction
3. Meet & interview Camryn - DONE (01/03/2013)
4. Go to all the Disney parks in the world
5. Stay in a five star hotel
6. Have work experience at Sugarscape
7. Go to LA
8. Swim with dolphins
9. Go to Italy
10. Put songs I've written to music
11. Work for a charity
12. Spend the day with one of my idols
13. Go to Africa to help out
14. Do the Harlem Shake! - DONE (more times than expected)
15. Learn sign language
16. Have a basic understanding of Japanese
17. Be happy with who I am
18. Watch a musical (pref. Wicked, We Will Rock You or Lion King)
19. Own a parrot
20. Be an extra in something. Like a film, show, music video, I dunno.
21. Work with ITV Wales again for another short film.
22. Go to a big awards ceremony (BRITs maybe?)
23. Visit Hollywood
24. Go to Tennessee
25. Shop in New York
26. Go to a festival
27. Make and finish a scrapbook
28. Have a massive water fight
29. Find a lifelong friend
30. Go to the Ben & Jerry's graveyard
31. Go snorkeling
32. Visit Walt Disney, Roy Disney, Elvis Presley, Marylin Monroe, Mickey Mouse & Kermit The Frog's Walk of Fame Stars
33. Go to Universal Studios, Citywalk and Disneyland in California
34. Go to Florida again
35. Take a photo by the Hollywood Sign
36. Finish this bucket list/

100 questions!

Waiting for my mother to hurry up home from work because I'm bored on m'own now...

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Thriller (Michael Jackson), La La Land (Demi Lovato), Moments (One Direction), I Need You Now (Olly Murs), Hound Dog (Elvis Presley), Killing In The Name (RATM)

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Olly Murs and One Direction (See last blog post) AND CAMRYN


3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
Can't find a book so it's a magazine and it says "The original decanters were sourced from antiques markets, making each piece unique." It's not my magazine, I swear.

4) What do you think about most?
Olly Murs, One Direction, Disney and life.

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
"Not yet. Fingers crossed!"

6) Do you sleep with or without the light on?
Without. I used to have the landing light on until I was 7, but now sleeping with the light on would bug me.

7) What’s your strangest talent?
I don't have a strange talent! Typing without looking?

8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls are humans, Boys are too. Apparently.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
No *Sad face* 

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Umm, I don't know. Probably a few months ago.

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
Death, but that isn't strange. 

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Hahaha, no. 

13) What’s your religion?
Agnostic.

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Wanting to be back inside, haha! I don't know, to be honest. Depends where I am.

15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
I like taking funny photos, but I like taking photos, too.

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
One Direction. Guilty!

17) What was the last lie you told?
That I wasn't spending all day sleeping... *Ahem*

18) Do you believe in karma?
To be honest, I don't know. 

19) What does your screen name mean?
Screen name for my blog? It's just because I love Olly Murs' Troublemaker and I can be cheeky so I was once called "Miss Cheeky" and I was also called "Miss Troublemaker" and since I'm an olly fan, I put the two together... yeah...

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I'm too open and umm... Creativity? I dunno...

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
I go really red when people ask me this! I think Zac Efron, but at the same time, I kind of like Olly and One Direction, but if they asked me out, I'd actually feel like saying no because I'd want to be best mates with them. Olly's too old for me anyway. He's like... 11 years older? Haha! Harry Styles is just over a year older than me, so that's not too bad, eh? 

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Pfft, NO!

23) How do you vent your anger?
Either by listening to music or lying on my bed and screaming into my pillow. 

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Dalmatians! And Disney stuff...

25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Video chatting. I don't know why but I'm awful when it comes to phonecalls and hate them.

26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
That's debatable.

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
Babies crying and the sweet voices of Olly & One Direction (How many times will I mention them in this blog alone?)

28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
"What if we never moved back from Caerphilly... what would life be like now?"

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I doubt their existence but you never know...

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
TV remote, my phone

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Nothing. 

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
I'm not too sure! Probably the French Hospital I had to go to when my dad fell ill in France.

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
Eh?

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Olly Murs & One Di- that doesn't need finishing, does it?

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
I'm still trying to find it out...

36) Define: love.
There's different types of love- caring love, romantic love, lust love, there's a few. But I know I haven't found true love towards a person yet, though I love my friends and family with all my heart and I love my idols for being who they are. Love is an umbrella of different loves. 

37) Do you believe in luck?
I hope it exists.

38) What’s the weather like right now?
Welsh. 

39) What time is it?
12:26pm

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
Nope >< 

41) What was the last book you read?
Happy Days by Olly Murs

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
It's alright.

43) Do you have any nicknames?
Jazz. It's like used as my name, though, instead of Jazmin. Rare that I get called Jazmin. 

44) What was the last movie you saw?
That's actually a good question. I don't know the answer to it! 

45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
My knee injury. Don't laugh! I did a chicken impression and it sort of wrenched and moved out of place and I pulled crucial ligaments and ended up in hospital for four hours. It still plays up! 

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
No :( 

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Do you really need to ask? 
48) What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?
Ben & Jerry's Phish Food. 

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Too many. 

50) Do you believe in magic?
Disney magic is the best kind of magic. 

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Yep.

52) What is your astrological sign?
Libra.

53) Do you save money or spend it?
I try to save and do well for a while and then suddenly, I spend it when I haven't finished saving.

54) What’s the last thing you purchased?
iTunes voucher.

55) Love or lust?
Never experienced love so I don't know. 

56) In a relationship?
Nope.

57) Are you a virgin?
Yep.

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
*Tries to* No, but close. 

59) Where were you yesterday?
In my house. 

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
MY PJ'S! Wearing my reindeer ones. 

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
No, but I should- my feet are cold!

62) What’s your favorite animal?
Dog.

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
What?

64) Where is your best friend?
In my head. He's imaginary. His name is Billiard. Nah, I don't know, to be honest. I have a few. Probably in school/college or working. 

65) Spit or swallow?
O.o

66) What is your heritage?
I'm Welsh, but my Granddad was born in England, though he moved to Wales when he was four so his accent was a rather strong Welsh one.

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Trying to sleep.

68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?
Ahaha, I was going to say, but then I realised that was the last name of someone I disliked so I'm going to be a good girl and not give it out.

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
What?

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I don't know, to be honest.

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
There's no canal near me. So there. But I'd save the dog and say "Look, do you really want me to be a cold-hearted employee?"

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
Of course I would, I'd try and meet my heroes, yes.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
Trust. Because how can you love someone you can't trust? 

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Hold On by Olly Murs because it really helps me.

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
I'm not telling you.

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust, similarities and differences, a good laugh and obviously have feelings for one another. But I have never had a relationship, so I don't know if I've missed anything out.

77) How can I win your heart?
Be kind, caring, generous, funny and like me for who I am.

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Yes. 

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Joining Wicid/CLIC.

80) What size shoes do you wear?
7

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Oh my God, the guy's grave next to my granddad's says "Mission Completed" I want something quirky like that! 

82) What is your favorite word?
Disney :P 

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: sex.
I cringe. No idea why! 

 84) What is a saying you say a lot?
Oh my God

85) What’s the last song you listened to?
I'm currently listening to Heart Attack by Demi Lovato

86) Basic question: what’s your favorite color/colors?
Purple, Pink, Black & Silver.

87) What is your current desktop picture?
It's Olly Murs & One Direction

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
I can't give that kind of information out! 

89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
I don't know. Probably "Who do you think is good looking?" because I don't know (except celebrities) 

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Tell them to shut the eff up because I'm sleeping. 

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
To be able to meet anyone I wanted to.

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Either winning CLICer of the Year or half an hour of one of the residentials I've been on.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
There's a few. Like being stuck in a French Hospital... or this massive argument I had. Or having my dog stolen. No I think the last one. 
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
I don't know! *goes red* 

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
CALIFORNIA! Or Florida. 

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not that I'm aware of.

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Yes. It was horrible. But it was my fault because my step brother and I had eaten too many cookies. Whoops! 

98) Ever been on a plane?
Indeed I have. 

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Stop the wars and hate, Let me meet Olly Murs & One Direction, someone go find a cure for cancer, stop killing people, sort this horse-meat scandal out and I LOVE DISNEY. 

100) Your motto?
Probably "Keep Smiling, Keep Dreaming, Keep Believing". 

My Six Superheroes

Soppy alert. I repeat, soppy alert. Sorry not sorry. 


When people say that a famous person means a lot to them, you shouldn't slag that person off because there are some celebrities out there that really can have an impact on your life.

I'm just going to say it- yes, I suffer with cyclothymia (a form of Bi Polar) topped off with anxiety and borderline depression. It's a bitch. But, there are six people who get me through everyday- Olly Murs and One Direction.

Before you groan and call me an "obsessive fan girl" I'm just going to kindly tell you to shut the hell up. Why? Because you don't understand the story and you've never walked in my shoes, so who are you to judge what impact they've had on me? Exactly.

I'm not going to go through how I first became a fan or anything, because I'm sure I've mentioned it before. And I'm not ashamed to admit that I wasn't an open fan at first, either. You see, I had a group of friends I looked up to and I felt as though fan girling and such was completely out of the question if I didn't want them to see me as a freak. Those friendships (or the majority of, at least) ended and I'm actually glad they did. The true friends have stuck by my side and I feel that I can be myself again. I've been a fan of Olly since The X Factor 2009, so practically all of his career. But One Direction... when they were on the show, I was sort of stuck in a fog of confusion and pain... I was questioning myself about a lot of things in life and when you think as much as I do, you don't tend to notice things like "what's on the telly",etc. So, yes, I'm a fairly new fan of One Direction, but that makes me no different to any other. Why? Because I still look up to the boys and they really have made an impact on my life in the past month or two.

I'm in a dark place right now and trapped in a prison cell known as my own body, but when the internet is your only company for about 70% of the day, you end up learning a lot about your heroes and they make you realise that life can be pretty damn amazing and you don't have to suffer. Getting out of my situation is hard, but when you have six idols to look up to, it can help a lot. Olly's journey, his passion, his music, all of it is something I look up to a lot. When he sent me an autograph recently, I've kept it as a little something to look at and remember that I can do this. And watching One Direction live their dreams and being crazy, teenage boys has made me realise that life isn't as bad as the darkness in my mind is building it up to be.

I am so thankful for those six British lads because I don't know where the hell I would be right now without them because the past few months have been hell and torture and I have a slight feeling that without the glimpse of positiveness, I wouldn't be here. Something dark to say, I know, but you have to live in the situation to understand.

I know that the odds of me meeting my idols are practically impossible and that sucks, but I'm just thankful they exist and are living their dreams and are inspiring millions of people and I'm lucky to be one of those people they are inspiring and if I could do anything to thank them, I would, but I just don't know how... so I'll just be a faithful and loyal fan and stick with them even through the hard times because I really do love them.

Oliver Stanley Murs ♥

One Direction ♥

The Celebrity Life

This is a tag thing I was shown by a friend and I thought I'd do it! Why not?

Your sister: Miley Cyrus, without a doubt. I've always looked up to her, so you know. Gotta be Shmilers!

Your brother: I'mma say Harry Styles because we have some things in common (and he likes Elvis- legend) and he seems like the kind of guy I would want as a brother if I didn't have the ones I have now.

Your cousins: I'd have Louis Tomlinson for one because he's funny as fook and I'd love a family member like that. I'd also have Niall Horan because he's really nice! I'd probably talk for ages with him about anything at all. They'd be like my two close cousins.

Your best friends: Olly Murs would be one. I'd say him as boyfriend but he's 29 this year and I'll be 18 in September so there's a bit of a gap there! And I'd be happy enough as him being a best friend. He'd be a great best friend, I reckon. I'd also have Gregory Gorgeous because who wouldn't? I have a few gay best friends but he's amazing and ack! I'd also have Demi Lovato because we have so much in common! We have the same problems so we can relate. We just seem quite similar.

Your childhood friends: Hmm... Nick Jonas, because he seems so sweet and I don't know. Just seems like the guy I could call a childhood friend. I mean I grew up from about 11 years old with the Jonas Brothers in the background and I used to be a big fan so it's like I grew up with him in a way. I'd also say Liam Payne because he reminds me a little of my stepbrother and cousin combined. And I can't leave out Zayn now, can I? He also reminds me a bit of my cousin but a bit milder. My cousin is a nutter but Zayn's like a calmer version.

Your "more than a friend": Zac Efron. I mean, come on! Have you seen him?! And not to mention he's a funny guy, sweet and honest. I also grew up with him in my life from age 11 up and I always admired him.

Your online friends: Debby Ryan because she is so nice and I think we'd get on! I don't know who else, to be honest. Umm, maybe Vanessa and Stella Hudgens because they seem like nice girls who I could talk to for ages online!

Your Aunty you turn to for advice: Caroline Flack. She seems to be the type who I could look up to and learn from. Plus she's really pretty!

Oh my God, there's so much more of this tag and I can't think of any other celebs! Ack! I'll end the questions here. Also, yes, I'm a One Direction fan. Problem? I'm a new fan, so I wouldn't call myself a directioner as of yet... Early days! But I will admit to spending my lazy days watching videos of them and stuff and I'd love to be friends with them. If I met them, I wouldn't act like if I met Olly, I'd probably be calmer and joke about. As well as be nervous because I'd think they were silently judging me, so yeah. I think that all the time about anyone, though. I'm a freak.

And on that note, GOODBYE!

The wait is on...

Waiting sucks. Sucks like a... really sucky thing. You get my point.

It seems that all I will be doing this month is exactly that. Wait. Want to know what I'm waiting for? Well, I'm going to tell you regardless to whether you care, so...

I'm putting on an event on behalf of Rhondda Radio on 2nd March for St David's Day. Kind of ironic, really, because St David's Day is the day before. But it's a weekend, so I sort of see their point. But I'm waiting for an email with regards to what they actually want me to do. Is it a gig? Is it a fete kind of thing? What is it? I have no idea. Then I have to wait for the event. Obviously, I'll be working on the event, but waiting to see if it's a success or not. I always feel anxious about that. Not in a bad way, but I just really want my events to go well because if I'm good at them now, surely I can only get better?

Another thing I'm waiting for (and the most exciting thing) is OLLY MURS! Yes, I managed to get tickets to see him live on 26th March. My excitement is immense and I swear I will end up exploding with it before the concert! My dad managed to get me two tickets because someone for some bizarre reason gave theirs back. The best bit? 12 rows from the front! AAAH! I saw a post on Facebook from the venue about how a bunch of tickets were given back and I instantly phoned my dad asking him to ring up about them. About 10 minutes later he rings me back and he's in a sort of depressed voice. "Right... promise me you won't get too disappointed?" "I promise." "Promise?" "Yes!" "....I got you two ticke-" "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!" "...I was afraid you were going to do that." "Why didn't you block your ears then?" So that's basically how it went. I cannot wait, though! So excited! It's going to be pucka!

And the last main thing I'm waiting for is my course. I'm going to be studying Events Management Level 3 online and I can't do it until my mother pays for it and with other things that has to be paid first, I just have to wait. And I hate waiting. It. Really. Annoys me. But, I'll enjoy doing the course, especially since there's no exams. It should be good!

Obviously, the year holds a lot more I have to wait for, but those are the main things.

Valentine's day is coming up. Bleurgh. I'm only saying that because some people take it so seriously and are way too smushy. It's like "are you serious? It's one day which companies rip you off. You show your loved one you love them when you want, not when people say you have to." I mean, it's sweet, but when people are all over it and too smushy, then it's irritating. And no, I'm not saying that purely because it's my 17th year being single.

I did make a Valentine's this year, though. A video. Can you guess who for? I thought "well, Olly's single and people make such a fuss over that, but all anyone should care about is how much his fans love him. And with that thought in mind, I made this. It has quite a few fans in it. I mean, why should it just be about couple love? Let's celebate ALL THE LOVE! Friends, family, admiration towards rolemodels, that kind of thing.

Anyway, I must dash. I've been nagged to make lasagna with my mother and she's getting fed up of waiting.

Cheerio! Cheerio, Darling!