Monday, 30 July 2012

See it in a different light

Hey there,

So, it's summer. And stuff. I'm getting better. I'm starting to get more positive and whatnot. It's great to see things in a different way, you know? I'm feeling better and I'm looking forward to the awesome things coming up in the future. I've learnt a lot in the past few days and I'm ready to move onto bigger and better things.

Yesterday, I went to see Eric Unseen in Caerphilly's Big Cheese and they were great, as usual. I loved their version of Starships by Nicki Minaj. That was entertaining. They also covered a variety of artists- from The Beatles to Meatloaf and from Nicki Minaj to Johnny Cash, not to mention doing their own songs. My personal favorite from the performance was probably their own song, Missing. It's just a catchy song.

        
                Eric Unseen cover Nicki Minaj's Starship,
                                                                     
I wish I went to more stalls around The Big Cheese. It was so fun and I love going to things like that. Events such as The Big Cheese are always entertaining. Well, to me at least. We went to the Dogs Trust stall, Hope Rescue (where we saw this gorgeous dog who looked like a little puppy, despite being 4 years old), Cancer Research UK tombola stall where if you didn't win, you won a chocolate bar and a drink- win-win there, and a few other stalls.

I'm so excited for Christmas, and I know I couldn't wait until Summer, but you'll never guess what- my mother is getting married! If you know my mother, don't tell her I've written this because she doesn't want the family to know yet. It'll be Christmas Eve and then Boxing Day we will be going to Disneyland, Paris! Cannot wait! So excited!

Lately, I've been feeling rather nostalgic. My stepbrother has just graduated university and I've officially finished school... it's mad. I can't stop thinking about the old times. But, I'm not sad. I'm feeling somewhat happy despite feeling nostalgic- not sure if that's normal- and it seems as though the near future is going to be like the past, but not... that made absolutely no sense, but I understand it, so there.

I'm really looking forward to college, but at the same time, I'm dreading the travelling. From Treorchy to Nantgarw everyday is going to be a drag. But, it's a really good college and I enjoyed my visit, so it should be a great two years ahead of me.

I'm running out of things to say, so I'm off.

See ya.

Friday, 20 July 2012

Boycotting the Boycotts

Hey hey,

So, this is going back to LGBT again. As I have previously said, I am straight, but I still support LGBT rights.

So, I've recently found out about people creating boycotts against companies who support LGBT.

First thought? "idiots."

Just because a company supports. LGBTs, doesn't mean you should boycott them. Would you boycott Adsa's if they supported Man Utd and you didn't? If the answer is yes, the you clearly take your footie way too seriously.

The following 25 companies have had boycotts against them for their LGBT support:-

Oreo
Betty Crocker
Levi's
Cheerios
American Appeal
Walt Disney World (all of Disney have, but this is on an American site)
Starbucks
Wheaties
Tide
Microsoft
The Home Depot
Pampers
Pepsi
Safeway
Crest
Old Navy
Girl Scouts
Macy's
Target
JCP
Phillsbury
Walgreen's pharmacy
Ford
Gap
Green Giant
Next

Now, you may not have heard of all of the companies as they are American, but nevertheless, they were boycotted. Why? Just because they believe in something- which isn't harmful- doesn't mean you should boycott them. You won't take your kids to Disney purely because they let homosexuals in? Or have a cup of coffee in Starbucks because they accept lesbians? How ridiculous!

There were boycotts in the past for equality. Now that they are accepting LGBTs, there's boycotts again. Make up your mind, people! Either you want equality or not! And anyway, it's not like someone of the same gender is going to sexually harass you. That's not what being a different sexual orientation is about. They don't go round trying to rape you or anything. They are normal people. Geez. Let them be!

So just because a shop lets people who are a different orientation from you go there, or gays are allowed to use the same product as you, doesn't mean you should boycott them. Stop making a fuss. I might boycott the boycotts and just do the opposite of them.

That's all I can say on the topic, really.

See ya.


Sunday, 15 July 2012

Race for Life: It's us VS cancer


Sunday 15th July. A date where I made myself proud. Why? Because I participated in and completed the Cancer Research UK's Race for Life.

About two months ago, my mother and I were talking about problems that occur in our lives whilst watching Only Fools and Horses. When the adverts came on, the Race for Life advert appeared on our screen. That's when my mother turned to me and said "we should do that, you know. Forget about our problems and help those whose problems are very serious." My first reply?

"Mam, I can't run. I can't run to save my life!"

"Oh, don't be stupid, Jazz, with my back the way it is, I can't either. We can walk it, mun!"

We agreed that it was a good idea and signed up. Over the weeks leading up to the race, I worked hard in trying to get sponsors, training and raising awareness of Cancer Research UK.

Sadly, during that time, my uncle was diagnosed with cancer. And this case was (and still is) untreatable. Obviously, both my mother and I were (and still are) devastated at the fact, but we refused to give up. Having now going through what it feels like to have a cancer fighter as a relative, we could actually feel how horrible it really is for cancer patients' families and we felt as if we couldn't back down.

Let's skip onto the day of the race. I had to get up pretty early to catch 8:20am train. I'm not a morning person, but I was really looking forward to the day ahead.

During the train journey, the train filled more and more with women in pink. It just gave me this feeling inside. We're all in this together to make a difference. To save lives. When we got to our train stop, a sea of pink flooded throughout the train station and headed to Bute Park, Cathays- our destination for the day.

The walk to the park seemed rather long. We suddenly passed a lot of pink ribbon, which made us think it was there to guide us. Then we saw a "2KM" sign. We'd only gone and walked up the flipping course. Oh well, at least we knew our way.

When we got into the park area where the event began, the music pounded rough our bodies, the sea of pink got bigger and bigger and the atmosphere was amazing. My mother and I saw a free back massage area, so we weren't going to miss that opportunity, I can tell you that now. We had a quick massage- which felt amazing. My back felt so much better- before heading down to the stage. We were at the front at first, until halfway through, we decided to go to get a Race for Life t-shirt (which had all of the 6,500 participants names on there). There were two people from Capital FM presenting on the stage with dancers now and then and then the "Vaseline warm up team" came and warmed us all up. Imagine this: six-and-a-half-thousand women from all backgrounds, different parts of Wales, all bopping about to a remix song. It was pretty funny, mind. None of us had a straight face.

When the time came, everyone went to the correct flag (runners, joggers and walkers) and were led to different places. The walkers were the last lot to be taken to the starting line, so as we waited for the runners to take their positions, we were told to do a Mexican wave for their Facebook page. We were towards the back for this, and I wanted to be in the photo so what did I do? Jumped up in the air when it was our turn to raise our hands. I don't think it worked, mind.

With the racers ready, we counted down from 10 for them to start. It was pretty emotional because it was on a big screen and they filmed them going off. It hit me. "This is it. The big event. What we are doing for cancer." so I was a little choked up. We waited for the joggers to set off, before finally making our way to the start line. Reading people's back signs for who they were racing for was so emotional. To see little kids with "in memory on their mother" and photos of the people who were related to the racers was touching and it hits home about how serious it is. There were a lot of dogs also participating and one even had a sign saying "speedy paws for a good cause" written on it which was dead cute.

The race began, and we all started walking. The first K wasn't so bad, but each one seemed longer and longer. Just after 2KM, we saw a familiar face. It was only Martyn sitting on a bench to support us! We gave him a wave and he walked over and did about half a K with us before giving up and heading off to town to shop. Couldn't blame him really. It was tiring. Halfway through the race, my ankle decided to spazz out and hit onto the floor. It was pretty painful but I carried on.

At the 4KM sign, another familiar face popped up. Sinead was there cheering us on and walked the rest of the way with us, behind the banners. As we came to the final meter, I thought "let's do this." and ran it. Everyone cheered and the woman from Capital FM said to me through the mic "well done, lovely! You did well!" and I had a smile on my face. I collected my bottle of water, my medal and my goody bag. Sinead greeted me with a big hug and we all headed off to find somewhere to sit. There were massive beanbags laid out, so we instantly dived on them. We had a look around (and had another massage) before leaving.

Race for Life is amazing and I would recommend it to anyone who is eligible to enter. I also strongly advise that you warm up and train for the event. You will obviously feel some sort of pain after, but it's nowhere near as bad as the pain that cancer patients go through. I really hope to enter again next year, or if not, volunteer at the event.

Well done to anyone who also entered the race and thanks to all who sponsored me. There still is time to sponsor me to top the money up to raise more for Cancer Research UK. Visit www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/JazminWilliams or text JAZZ54 £1 to 70070. You really can make a difference. Together we will beat cancer.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

Being the Same is Boring...

Hello there,

Earlier on, a person (who I will hide their identity since I'm not mean... Well that mean at least! I try not to be mean... Sorry, off on a tangent aren't I?) said to me:

"You are stupid. You're not like everybody else. Freaks like you are just stupid."

Which made me instantly think " What, there's a rule now? Everyone must be the same?"

If everyone is meant to be the same, in sorry, but I would get bored of living in this world quite easily and quickly. If everyone was the same, there would be no originality, no uniqueness. We would know what to expect. I would absolutely detest that.

No, I'm not like everyone else. I'm not "normal"... But at the end of the day, what IS normality these says, anyway? Because none of us are really that normal.

Yes, I have mental health issues, but so do many people. Does that mean I should be frowned upon? I'm sorry, but if you can't accept that I have a problem, or accept anything about me, then I just don't want you apart of my life. If you can't accept that I love Disney, if you can't accept that I'm not a size 8, if you can't accept that I love Miley Cyrus and Elvis Presley, if you can't accept that I suffer with cyclothymia, anxiety and depression,if you can't accept that I have LGBT friends and support LGBT despite being straight or accept any little thing about me, I'm sorry, but are we REALLY friends? Are you participating in a proper friendship or are you just going to stand there and judge me and then expect me to change? Well, wake up call, sunshine, I'm changing for anyone but myself!

There are so many people out there that are beautiful and each and everyone are different. They may be barking mad, they may be the brain of Britain, they could have ADHD, Bi-Polar, Depression, A learning difficulty, a disability, they are all different and all beautiful.

So, if you're a person who wants to chance me, please, get the f*ck out of my life, because you're not wanted not needed in it. I'll change if I want to.

And as for my problems, they are just apart of me. They screw up on times but other times, they just sit there and don't mess me up much. They will always be there, but who doesn't have some sort of problem in their life? Look at yourself in the mirror. You have a problem of some sort- whether it's insecurity, a mental or physical problem, a learning disability, a past which wasn't that great which affects you now, or even a bad habit. But if you expect to be loved and treated right, do everyone a favour and return the respect that you expect.

Sorry, I just needed to vent. Race for life is just over 2 days away and I cannot wait!

Imma go now, I'm bored and peeved off that I've just missed Eastenders. Dammit.


See ya.

Friday, 6 July 2012

Que Sera Sera

Some of you may think I used that title from the original song... I used it because of a Hannah Montana song and no I don't care.

Hello there.

How's life? Mine? It's good. Really good. It's GREAT right now. "What's she all psyched about now?" you may mutter in your head. Well, I'll tell you.

I'm free. Free from school for GOOD! I don't know if I told you that I went back to school to finish off some more BTEC Science (you can probably guess that I wasn't too happy about that...) just to get more qualifications and to bump my chances to get into college. So that's all finished now and I've passed. WHOOT! Happy? Indeed I am, you wonderful people, you.

But I can't be so excited just because of that, right? That is correct, it's not the only thing I'm jumping for joy for. Inspire, my project, had its funding accepted earlier this week meaning we get £300! I have so many plans for Inspire which I won't reveal just yet but yeah, there's a lot of good stuff going on. Even got plans for next year's showcase event which will also double as Inspire's First Birthday party. I can't wait.

Monday is going to be good. I visit college for the day. Though I have to be awake at like 6am. Not the best. Apparently, we get to see inside the new college, which will be amazing. I am so excited. It's a new chapter in my life. Goodbye, school. If you know me well, you'll know that school has been hell for me. I think my family are all a little emotional that it's finally over.

Tomorrow I'm off up the radio station and then having a little party up my house to celebrate my step brother, Ryan's 21st which was Wednesday and also celebrate that he had a 2:1 in uni and is graduating. So yeah, that will be fun.

Race for Life is just over 8 days away and I am so excited! It's been a long journey but it wasn't that difficult. Ice also filled a bag to give in at the Donation Station which could raise up to £25 in the Cancer Research UK charity shops. It feels awesome to help others.

It feels amazing to finally have summer. Despite it not being the summer holidays yet, I can start mine now, and that's awesome. Really awesome.

I'm going to go now because my dad is on the phone and I want to talk to him.


See ya! X