Everyone is sharing their story, so this is mine:
I will always feel guilty for never being there from the start, but it’s not like I ever hated the boys. 2009 I was diagnosed with depression. It was a tough battle and lasted til early 2011, when I found my calling in life- writing and journalism.
During 2011 I was so focused on that and the events I was attending, I had no time for being a fan of anything. I made new friends who were older than me and at first I thought I could be myself around them… Well, I was wrong. I heard WMYB properly at a restaurant with them and all they did was slag the boys off, insult their fans and just put them down. I didn’t want to be seen as that person to them, so I ignored the fact that the song was catchy and just didn’t bother.
I heard WMYB again in Feb 2012 on a residential weekend on a friend’s iPod and I liked it so much that I borrowed his iPod and played it over and over. I was still trying to hide the fact that I found the song catchy until I went to visit family in Luton for the week.
I was on a computer looking at Sugarscape when I saw an article about Harry and how nice he was. I read a few articles about the boys before realising what I was doing and then stopped. When I got home from Luton, my “friends" and I got into massive argument and they started bullying me. I was in pieces.
My depression kicked back in and my anti-depressants were boosted. At this point, I began admitting I was a fan of Olly because the same thing was happening about me liking him. I got so caught up in being able to admit the fact I liked Olly, I forgot that I was allowed to like One Direction, too. Until New Years 2013, I saw a 1D video in the “suggested for you" on YouTube. It was a link to all the video diaries. I watched them and fell in love. Those boys were hilarious, sweet and just amazing.
I watched their X Factor performances from start to finish and ended up being awake all night listening to AUN and watching 2011-2012 videos. I’m not in education so by the end of that week, I had watched/read/listened to so much 1D stuff, I knew literally everything. I has downloaded both UAN and TMH and they were constantly playing.
In february, The NHS effed my medication up and gave me the wrong one, so I was suicidal. It came to the point that my mother had to take the day off work because I was so bad and we were crying on my bed together. She went downstairs to make an emergency appointment with my clinic and I put music on to help me fall asleep- Little Things came on and I cried again, but instead of it being because of suicidal thoughts, it was because I felt worth something after all. I smiled for the first time in days and with the help of the boys and my medication put back to normal, I was better again.
When I found out Camryn- who I had heard of years ago and I really liked- was going to be the support act of the boys UK tour, I was so gutted I didn’t have tickets! Camryn and I had spoken a few times before so I messaged her, wishing her luck for the tour and telling her about where I live and the website I write for and how she was on my bucket list as someone I wanted to interview. She replied saying thanks and how she’d love for me to interview her! I was so shocked and since she was going to be in my city the following week, I asked if I could interview her then and she happily agreed to it! I got the editor of the website to email her publicist and 2 days before, I found out I was going to interview her AND the fact that I had 2 FREE TICKETS TO SEE CAMRYN ON ONE DIRECTIONS SHOW ON MARCH 1st.
My emotions were everywhere and I was so happy! Camryn was Lovely and her manager put me on the guest list and my seats were amazing. They were at the back but less than 3 feet away from the floating stage stopping. It was amazing being so close to them and my love for them could only grow stronger.
Interacting with the fandom was scary at first… What if they rejected me? But I had learnt so much about the boys, I was fine and I didn’t tell them my story unless we were close. Some people were bitchy, but you get that everywhere.
One day, I had bad news and I was really down about it, but an hour later, Zayn tweeted a pic of Niall sleeping with sunglasses on, which I replied “how uncomfy is that?!" not 30 seconds after I tweeted it, ZAYN FOLLOWED ME! I was an emotional wreck, yet so thankful and he cheered me up so much.
I have so many memories of this fandom and it hasn’t even been a year for me yet! But the boys and Olly have literally saved my life and I wish I could thank them personally.
Happy 3 years, One Direction! I love you and the fandom ❤❤❤❤
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