My Six Superheroes

Soppy alert. I repeat, soppy alert. Sorry not sorry. 


When people say that a famous person means a lot to them, you shouldn't slag that person off because there are some celebrities out there that really can have an impact on your life.

I'm just going to say it- yes, I suffer with cyclothymia (a form of Bi Polar) topped off with anxiety and borderline depression. It's a bitch. But, there are six people who get me through everyday- Olly Murs and One Direction.

Before you groan and call me an "obsessive fan girl" I'm just going to kindly tell you to shut the hell up. Why? Because you don't understand the story and you've never walked in my shoes, so who are you to judge what impact they've had on me? Exactly.

I'm not going to go through how I first became a fan or anything, because I'm sure I've mentioned it before. And I'm not ashamed to admit that I wasn't an open fan at first, either. You see, I had a group of friends I looked up to and I felt as though fan girling and such was completely out of the question if I didn't want them to see me as a freak. Those friendships (or the majority of, at least) ended and I'm actually glad they did. The true friends have stuck by my side and I feel that I can be myself again. I've been a fan of Olly since The X Factor 2009, so practically all of his career. But One Direction... when they were on the show, I was sort of stuck in a fog of confusion and pain... I was questioning myself about a lot of things in life and when you think as much as I do, you don't tend to notice things like "what's on the telly",etc. So, yes, I'm a fairly new fan of One Direction, but that makes me no different to any other. Why? Because I still look up to the boys and they really have made an impact on my life in the past month or two.

I'm in a dark place right now and trapped in a prison cell known as my own body, but when the internet is your only company for about 70% of the day, you end up learning a lot about your heroes and they make you realise that life can be pretty damn amazing and you don't have to suffer. Getting out of my situation is hard, but when you have six idols to look up to, it can help a lot. Olly's journey, his passion, his music, all of it is something I look up to a lot. When he sent me an autograph recently, I've kept it as a little something to look at and remember that I can do this. And watching One Direction live their dreams and being crazy, teenage boys has made me realise that life isn't as bad as the darkness in my mind is building it up to be.

I am so thankful for those six British lads because I don't know where the hell I would be right now without them because the past few months have been hell and torture and I have a slight feeling that without the glimpse of positiveness, I wouldn't be here. Something dark to say, I know, but you have to live in the situation to understand.

I know that the odds of me meeting my idols are practically impossible and that sucks, but I'm just thankful they exist and are living their dreams and are inspiring millions of people and I'm lucky to be one of those people they are inspiring and if I could do anything to thank them, I would, but I just don't know how... so I'll just be a faithful and loyal fan and stick with them even through the hard times because I really do love them.

Oliver Stanley Murs ♥

One Direction ♥