Hey, look who it is! It's my favorite readers!
I didn't expect to see you here. No, really. I didn't. I didn't expect anyone, but there we go. Another post? Yeah, well, I guess it's writing season for my brain or something? I dunno.
I was thinking earlier on about something that I happen to come across like everyday. I don't particularly enjoy talking about this topic, either, but people tend to call me "boring" or "lame" or whatever since I don't discuss the topic much. This is about how I believe sex is becoming apart of everyday lives. Not the actual... ahem... activity sex, but like the talk of it and the innuendos and all that. Before I go on, I will let you know now that I feel awkward writing this but I feel like I want to/need to get my opinions out, especially since I don't like talking about it face to face with anyone.
Right. First of all, there is more than one reason as to why I don't like talking about the subject. Numero uno- I have Cyclothymia and if you read this, then you will see why. Now, I'm assuming the majority of you won't click that link, so I'll just post the bit I am referring to here so you can see:-
Depressive Episode
Symptoms of the depressive phase include difficulty making decisions, problems concentrating, poor memory recall, guilt, self-criticism, low self-esteem, pessimism, self-destructive thinking, constant sadness, apathy, hopelessness, helplessness and irritability. Also common are quick temper, poor judgment, lack of motivation, social withdrawal, appetite change, lack of sexual desire, self-neglect, fatigue, and insomnia.[14]
Hypomanic Episode
Symptoms of the hypomanic episode include unusually good mood or cheerfulness (euphoria), extreme optimism, inflated self-esteem, rapid speech, racing thoughts, aggressive or hostile behavior, lack of consideration for others, agitation, massively increased physical activity, risky behavior, spending sprees, increased drive to perform or achieve goals, decreased need for sleep, tendency to be easily distracted, and inability to concentrate.[15]
The above is basically the two episodes a cyclothymic person has. The one I have put in bold is the one I am talking about. "lack of sexual desire". One reason why I am quite awkward around talking about it. Another reason is simple- I want to keep my private life private. Yes, I am a virgin, no I haven't had a boyfriend,but it is something I would want to keep on the down low.
That's what I don't understand why some of my friends like to discuss different things about the topic like it's just a TV program or something. Why discuss it? Can't you keep your business to yourself? Because, to be perfectly honest, I don't want to know what you have been up to or anything like that.
It seems as though wherever I turn, there is some innuendo or some joke about sex being made. I know this is probably just me, but I find it like... well I don't find it all that appealing. I'd much rather talk about how rubbish The X Factor is or something else. I just feel so awkward around the topic.
When I don't join in the conversations I get called things like "too immature" or "a wimp" or something. I'm not any of those things just because I dislike the topic. Why can't people just leave me and anyone else in the same boat as me alone?
What really bugs me, though, is when people make what ever you do seem sexual or dirty or whatever. I swear, some people think of nothing else but sexual things and it is so annoying. Another thing that I find irritating is when people mime the activity on random objects or even people. Dude, if I wanted to see things like that, I'd visit a porn site. I don't. You look stupid. Stop it.
Right, that's enough of that topic now, it's getting on my nerves.
There's not much else happening for me right now. I'm going to see my sister tomorrow as she's over my dad's house, visiting. I'm looking forward to seeing her again. Friday I'm helping CLIC out with packing goodie bags,etc. ready for a conference this Tuesday.
My arm is dying, I'm going to leave it now.
S'laters x
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